It seems we all have that 'place', that home ground, that central station, where we can park, unload our carts and simply 'be'. These places of spiritual neutrality are sacred, clean, and are a holistic part of our lives. They are the spaces in between the moments we deem the most important, yet these breaks and spaces are what shape us. How can we keep ignoring it?
It dawned on me today, what if I looked for my sacred 'place'? I might be able to harness my thoughts better and ask myself the important questions I've been avoiding. (It's kind of like those midterms I would have been avoiding exactly a year ago today!) Recognizing that I have truly been avoiding my own thoughts and questions is a great discovery. One that I need to continue to make every day! It's all too easy to turn on the auto pilot mode, and just 'go'. It takes greater attention and perception to be in-tune with one's raw state.
After reminiscing about some of the other tough decisions I've made in my life, I realized that they all did seem to point to one place. A place where I cannot hide from myself, and the truth surrounds me - the bathroom. Yes. You read correctly. As silly as it may sound, that is probably the place where I feel at the most ease. Whether I'm taking a warm shower, or bubble bath, putting on my makeup, fixing my hair, or simply cleaning, I feel like I am not avoiding myself whenever I'm in there. I'm able to think clearly and without distractions. Plus, I do really enjoy putting on makeup and fixing my hair - so, it's kind of a home-run solution.
Heck, I was cleaning the bathroom back when I was a sophomore in college when I switched from being pre-med to an English for New Media major! I was also in the bathroom putting on makeup when I realized a toad, 'boyfriend' of mine was not the right dating material. I also was silently whining at my reflection one day when I finally decided to take better care of my health and fitness. Again, this may all sound a little far-fetched, but I truly believe that, that, is my place.
Why the bathroom? Gosh, if Freud were to step in, he'd make some snarky comment about my "anal rententiveness", or something of that sort. But, I see my choice differently. I see it as a place where I can be completely RAW, completely CATHERYN. I mean, going about my day, I'm still me, but maybe not to my purest and rawest. I mean the bathroom is the place where I can create my face for the day. I can also completely bare myself and be in my most natural state. Metaphorically, I think it allows me to tap back into the days before I was aware of what held me back. The mirror also gives me a reminder that I can't hide from myself - because there I am - staring right back at myself. There's no need to alter anything because that's me, and I understand who I am, even under all of the makeup and hair products.
So maybe your place is somewhere more glamorous, less 'embarrassing', or more exotic - that's fine! As long as it is YOU through and through that you see staring back at yourself, then that's all that truly matters. We all have a place - I challenge you to find it, and ask yourself what significance or metaphorical value that place holds for you. Then, confront yourself! Sit, or stand, and find out what you must do to ignite the most intricate pieces of your happiness and life.
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